My successes, my failures, and who I want to become
I knew exactly what I needed to do to become the best. I had the time, the resilience, and the fire.
I poured everything into my career. I worked hard! I learned from the masters and chased success. I realized my potential and found my voice.
I didn't just learn; I taught. I loved the craft, and I kept building.
The Stagnation
Competence drifted into monotony. I found myself solving the same problems, just with different library versions. The thrill of creation became the routine of assembly. I was a master builder in a city that had stopped growing. I knew how to build, but I was forgetting why. Novelty stopped feeling exciting; it started to feel like fear. I went from wanting my success to be seen, to praying my failures would stay hidden.
I realized I had built my entire life around sustaining this comfort. Change was a war I wasn't sure I could win.
Then came AI. Infinite potential. Probabilistic outcomes. Systems that don't just follow orders—they reason, adapt, and surprise. The rules changed!
I'm not running from this 'enemy'(!); I'm keeping it close. I'm starting this adventure again, just like when I wrote my first line of code. I'm trying to unlearn the discipline, willpower, and expectation of perfect results I once clung to. I am rewriting my habits.
You can follow that journey right here.
Location
Izmir, Turkey
Current Role
Software Developer
Experience
7+ Years
Core
React, Next.js, TypeScript, Tailwind
Learning
AI Agents
Env
Antigravity, macOS
Interests
Personal Development, Content Creation, AI
Currently Reading
"Drive" by Daniel PinkContact
orhan@ozkercin.dev